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Dear Self,
I’m not going to sugar coat shit for you. Get your shit together. It don’t make no sense that you carry on like you do. How can you honestly say you want better for yourself and you still do the same shit you’ve been doing? No one is going to feel bad for you because you aren’t proving that you want to change. There is no handout. There is no man or woman that is going to solve your fucked up shit. It’s time to be real. It’s time to cry, release and move on to better things. Aren’t you tired of suffering? Are you tired of setting the same goals YEAR AFTER YEAR? How many years is it going to take until you BOSS UP? Take control of your life and stop blaming everyone else. It’s your fault at this point. You have the ability to change. I know shit happened and now nothing seems to go right BUT SO WHAT! Stop focusing on what isn’t right and do what is right! You have the ability to change. I don’t blame you. I understand you. It takes COURAGE to change. You have it in you, but you’re comfortable in your dysfunction. You’re comfortable in your BULLSHIT. But now is the time to challenge yourself. Stop making those same fucking excuses. Stop calling on God to bail you out each time you make the same MISTAKE. Give yourself the CONTROL to change your circumstances. Rid yourself of that TOXIC energy. Get RID of people who don’t MEAN YOU WELL. Nothing will work out in your favor until you take the steps to change. I know you can do it. But you have to stop LYING to yourself. Stop telling yourself you aren’t worthy. That’s a LIE. You deserve happiness. You can be HAPPY. Let that HURT GO. I know you are able. I know because I let you go a long time ago and I feel better than ever. I love you, but in order for me to GROW I need to let you go of the OLD you.
Sincerely,
New & Improved.